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Thu, Oct. 6th, 2005, 10:52 pm
so fucking what............

i hate this.... i started my new job and worked 12 hours today... 8:30-8:30 with one 15 minute break.... and i go to some shitty bar/chinese food place after work and sit alone and drink a couple beers and eat a burger.... then some guy starts telling me i don't know how to paint cause i have it all over my pants cause i've been using the same painting pants for two years... so i'm pretty much fuck this prick and try to enjoy my beer and burger in peace..... and i can't be that mad cause that's the first person i've really had to talk to other than my new boss.... the last two bars i went to know one will talk to me even though i try hard to strike up conversations..... anyways.... so I wait outside so i can take a 45 minute bus ride and i'm freezing because i had to wet down my shirt to scrub up some dirt i got on the carpet so my shirts wet and it's prolly 50 degrees or something since the sun was long gone..... and so when i get home the first thing i notice is that my landlord still hasn't fixed my window.... when i moved in i realized one of my windows was broken so my landlord's 70 year-old shitty fucking maintenance man comes over last week on tuesday and pulls out the entire window pain and duct tapes cardboard over the window.... and it's been like this for over a week and i'm scared everyday that i'll come in and my stuff will all be gone and my cat will have escaped out the window... it's not like i live in the safest neighborhood.... but anyways.... i come home and there's still fucking cardboard in the window.... so i'm pissed about that...... but finally i go in and i see Rosie's cage on the floor and rosie sprawlled out dead on my carpet..... i don't know how my cat got to her cage... it was suspended off the ground on a t.v. wall mount in the middle with nothing for Chavez to climb up on..... so i just broke down..... so i buried her in the alley on the side of my apartment........ anyways... so sad for fucking me..... fuck..... i miss her.....